PSA: I am in Awe.

I’m just in awe.

There’ a sudden feeling in my chest, it feels similar to uncertainty but no it’s just an overwhelming feeling of gratitude that I can’t express.

I can’t put words to how I feel right now, I feel so secure in the one I’ve never seen.

I feel humbled and currently my fears are silenced, my thoughts are silenced I don’t feel scared right now. I actually feel at peace.

Actually, all I want to do is go up to the Lord & just sit with him all day. Even if it’s just to look at his gates all day because I feel so secure.

A lot of things don’t make sense and they haven’t for a while but it’s not my job to worry.

Just looking back at everything, even the smallest things God has done, I’m in awe.

We get so caught up about what has not been done & all the negatives & the chaos.

Yet, to even have my sanity in tact, I’m in awe.

I could have lost it so long ago, like mentally.

I can pin point when my mind went on detour, felt like I was losing my mind, but all that time God kept me together & you wouldn’t have known that.

Fear is a human emotion, uncertainty is a human emotion, doubt is a human emotion, pain is a human emotion, regret is a human emotion, tears are human actions reflecting human emotions & mistakes are human actions.

In God none of these things exits.

Peace is of God.

I look back & I see Things could have went so left.

I am in awe.

I’m in awe of how far I’ve come. I’m in awe of how much I’m loved. I’m in awe because he chose me. I’m in awe because he has never forsaken me.

I am in awe.

Post BOC @7am.