In Your Presence🤍

In your presence I am a child again.

In your presence, I let down the very guard I put up to the world.

I’m vulnerable, I’m naked, I’m easy, I’m me because It’s just you and me.

In your presence, it’s just me and you.

And that’s what I love about us, me & you, with you I start making sense of it all, making sense of all the confusion & kerfuffal.

I love the accessibility, I can call on you at any time as long as I call.

I just want to say sorry, sorry for not calling for so long & thinking I could figure it all out on my own or with others.

When It was one call away, just to understand it all.

I just needed to spend time in your presence again.

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You asked me if I trust you…

How can you ask me that?

Tbh. I mean how couldn’t you ask me that?

It’s like you’ve spent 23 years calling me, telling and showing me that you love me.

& What did I do?

Replied with doubt, with fear in fact Some days I didn’t even reply.

I just went off and did my own thing, sought what I had in you, in others.

Sometimes I feel like a fool, cause deep down I know what the world thinks of me, isn’t even me.

So why do I keep running, Ignoring, doubting & hurting you?

In your presence, I realise it’s because you’re the only one that truly knows me & the devil tries to rob me of that

Hold on. Why do you still answer my calls whenever I call?

I struggle to understand.

But You’re the one who sees me with a naked eye. You’re the only one who stood through out & that’s why.

It’s because you love me.

And I’m still on this “what’s love” ? Yet, Everyday I run from true love because I struggle to understand it.

I’m only just getting the hang of the whole “self – love” thing lol, come to think of your type of love – True Love.

So again I am Sorry God, I’m sorry I hurt you🤍 help me to trust you.

Love,

Your trying servant,

Your daughter,

L🤍

– Proverbs 3 : 5-6 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

– Deuteronomy 28 .