T R A U M A.

Inside my mind was like a ticking time bomb… any sign of trauma , I’d be scared this is it… this is when I lose myself.

I done gone through so much, sometimes I would fear ‘this is it’.

Surely, my brain couldn’t comprehend any more, this time around I’m going to drown.

This is the time I’ll lose it all, like I’d lose everything , everything I ever worked so hard for. And In a glimpse of an eye it’ll all just disappear.

Cause how much trauma can ones mind actually take?

I shortly realised pain remains constant.

Life is funny. Like I say, it comes with many different trails … some by self inflicted decisions & some served by life itself.

Either way you find yourself hitting rock bottom. In the process, it’ll scar your heart & it’ll scar your mind. Invincible scars can’t be expressed for they are not to be seen but to be felt.

Only you feel the depth & intensity of the pain because only you can understand it. But everybody can feel it.

‘Cause hurt people hurt people.’

PTSD – P)OST T)RUAMATIC S)TRESS D)ISORDER.

The devil haunts you with your pain, brokenness & your past hoping that you’d fall each time you face new trauma.

Last year, I just had to wait. I had to understand that these scars are embedded in my story. They built me and they are just a piece to a bigger picture that God has promised me in his scriptures.

Through the trauma, through the pain, I understood I must not wait ON God but wait IN God.

‘If it had not been the Lord who was on our side’… where would I be? ‘For my help cometh from the Lord’

‘I guess, if you do not know my pain, you’ll never understand my PRAISE 🎶’